A woman, married for years to an emotionally and physically abusive husband is beaten nearly to death by that husband. The only thing that stops him from going too far this time is that he slips in her blood and falls while trying to kick her in the head. His fall throws him back and… Continue reading Don’t Ask That
Tag: Toxic Relationships
Do You Ever Wonder?
Do you ever wonder how many bruises and cuts and lacerations, how many serrated slashes and soul deep stabs, how much abuse and trauma a single heart can withstand and still function as it is supposed to? Or even at all? Do you ever wonder what it takes to keep moving and functioning? To keep… Continue reading Do You Ever Wonder?
Holiday Perspective
Is it just me or do other people's view and attitude about the holidays change depending on those they are around? Specifically family. Sorry if the following does not match the cheeriness of the photo. When it is just Hubby, the kids, and me, I'm generally excited about the holidays and the traditions we have… Continue reading Holiday Perspective
Not A Book Review
While this post is in a sense about a book, it is so much more because of a book I read. And maybe a little of a recent discussion I've been having with a fellow blogger. Because of that, it does not follow a normal review format and I doubt I'll post any of this… Continue reading Not A Book Review
Crazy Teen Dating Drama
Sorry! No photo today. I have been offline lately because EVERYONE is off and home for the holidays. Hubby AND the kids. But, I had fully intended to post the other day asking for advice on a teen dating issue with BG. Before I could, the whole situation snowballed and I'm left with a giant… Continue reading Crazy Teen Dating Drama
Resonance
I obviously enjoy a wide range of books across many genres, but the ones that tend to stick with me the most are the ones that can give me a story about the imperfections of humanity and do so with a strong emotional impact, be it through humor, joy, anger, love, tears or grief. As… Continue reading Resonance
Forever Healing?
It occurred to me the other day that I'm getting close to the two year anniversary of when the life I was familiar with began to get ripped apart, and continued to do so through the fall, yet I am still raw and healing in places. Sometimes I wonder if it will ever quit feeling… Continue reading Forever Healing?
My Heart Hurts
Getting a visit from the police because they are attempting to do a welfare check on OC broke my heart even more today. The visit told me much about the life he is choosing to live. The first, is that he had a good place to work if the people cared enough to call the… Continue reading My Heart Hurts
Cutting Deeper
I'm learning through the repeated ripping open of old wounds that when you cut toxic relationships from your life, for whatever reason, and no matter who that person is, it is sometimes never over. There is loss. There is grief. But, you have only chosen to remove them from your life. They haven't died. They… Continue reading Cutting Deeper
That’s A Wrap
I got all my wrapping done today. Yay! That means I'll have over a week of seeing my tree nice and full with presents underneath. The only thing left is whatever Hubby needs to do. It feels really good to be done, but... I've been in kind of a funk lately. It's funny. I thought… Continue reading That’s A Wrap
Need Something Beautiful
I needed something beautiful after the absolute roller coaster of emotional shit that today has been. I have felt pulled apart and stomped on, picked up and dusted off, rearranged and put back in a different order. In the end, some things have been said that needed said and new boundaries put in place. We… Continue reading Need Something Beautiful
Prickly
To say I'm feeling prickly today would be... not even close to accurate. I haven't been in the best of moods lately. I hadn't been able to really pinpoint why or what triggered it outside of my normal "it's getting cold and overcast and I don't want to do anything" mode. Hubby and I talked… Continue reading Prickly
Out of Sorts
Last week was hard. Hubby and I made the decision to drop OC from our insurance. It feels like I'm failing as a parent or that I'm a bad parent because I've taken that last safety net away. Knowing he doesn't want it doesn't change how I feel about it. We decided that we could… Continue reading Out of Sorts
Need This To Stop
Another piece of mail has upended me. Well, it wasn't the piece of mail itself, but what it has led to. Another forced discussion of OC and where our boundaries lie. I could go on and on with the details, but they aren't what really matter. In the end, we have gotten a definitive "I… Continue reading Need This To Stop
Hindsight
One of the many projects that has been sitting on my to do list has been to dig through all of my old photos to find my favorites to print and hang on the walls. I've been terrible over the years of just moving them from my camera to my computer and not ever really… Continue reading Hindsight
Pretty Little Lies… Ideals
Perfect. Unconditional. Selfless. Black and White/Right and Wrong. I'm going to apologize upfront as this is going to be kind of long and rambling, but these are things that have, yet again, been running through my head on an infinity loop. I struggle with all of these concepts because I don't believe they truly exist… Continue reading Pretty Little Lies… Ideals
Letting Go
Letting go. I've had to do a lot of that over the last year. Well, honestly I've been doing it for a couple of years, just different things and at different levels. Almost 100% of what I've let go are things that brought negativity and ugliness into my life. I think I started the process… Continue reading Letting Go
Nearly A Year
It was slightly less than a year ago that OC decided that he wanted a life unhindered by parents and rules. It is past the one year mark since I cut ties with the majority of my family. I have learned a lot in that time. About me. About my kids. About what is important.… Continue reading Nearly A Year
Coping and Cleaning Out
The last couple of weekends have been really hard and really busy. After OC decided to not be here anymore, Hubby and I needed to clean the toxic waste dump that was his room. It smelled horrid as he never did laundry or cleaned up even slightly. When I say didn't do laundry, I mean… Continue reading Coping and Cleaning Out
Still Processing and Moving Forward
It has been over two weeks since years of frustration blew up all over the place. I've spent a lot of that time combing through memories of various events and their impact on my life, talking with Hubby about everything and discussing where we go from here. I've also been sorting through my feelings about… Continue reading Still Processing and Moving Forward
Reflections on Family and Relationships
The importance put on family is something I have spent a lot of time thinking on, not just lately, but for a very long time. With some of the issues with OC and also with regards to my own parents, siblings and in-laws, it has been something that has kind of always sat in the… Continue reading Reflections on Family and Relationships
TJ Fox: Sharing the Experience 