Memories of the Heart: Memories of the Heart, Book 1

Memories of the HeartAuthor: Felice Stevens
Book Name: Memories of the Heart
Series: Memories of the Heart
Order: #1
Genre: Romance/LGBT
Rating:  Didn’t Like


Blurb:  Ruthless, Controlling, A Loner. All words used to describe Dr. Micah Steinberg by the hospital staff for their next head of surgery. When a letter arrives from his grandmother’s friend at the assisted living facility, his orderly world tilts dangerously out of control.

Josh Rosen had everything until it was revealed much of his world was a lie. Forced to re-evaluate his life, Josh gives up his career and returns home to New York City to care for his beloved grandmother. What Josh didn’t figure on was an attraction to a man who on the surface, appears to be exactly like the life Josh chose to leave behind.

As Micah struggles with the reality of his grandmother’s illness, the bond these two share deepens, as Josh helps Micah heal, then open his heart. Micah discovers there is more to life than work, control and success. Josh is in deep but has yet to tell Micah who he really is.

When the fight for the hospital’s head of surgery turns ugly, Josh’s past and present collide. Micah must let go of the past and accept who he is, if his life is going to move forward.

Life is full of surprises, and as both Micah and Josh learn, love can happen whether you plan for it or not.

Review:  I really didn’t like this one.  For a few reasons.  The biggest being that the characters just weren’t all that believable or likable.  Enough so that I’ve got to break my normal rule of trying to not out and out bash a book.

Micah is just an ass.  There is no way around that.  It doesn’t matter that he was this unwanted and unloved child.  That doesn’t make me like him.  If anything, it makes me think that he is an even bigger ass if he thinks that because of his history it is okay to treat other people like shit.  When the history does come out, he comes across as being whiny and pathetic.  That is so not appealing, endearing or attractive.  He comes across as this hormonal, temperamental teenager rather than a mature, successful adult.  His lack of apparent understanding of standard practice in the hospital makes the supposed high level surgeon seem like an ignorant fool.  As a character, he just doesn’t work on any level for me.

Josh falls into the opposite end of the spectrum in that he has such a big, open heart he is more of a doormat and willing to take whatever abuse is sent his way as long as he gets a scrap of attention in between.  Again, not appealing or endearing.  He comes across as almost desperate, especially when he supposedly was swearing off of relationships.  He just suddenly, not only changes his mind, but is willing to risk a relationship again with someone who is as big of a jackass as Micah?  Yeah, that just doesn’t work for me.

Don’t get me wrong.  I love, broken and struggling characters, but these just seem shallow and whiny and it is impossible to connect with characters like that.

Beyond the characters, we also have a kind of disjointed story line that has several easy way out points that were annoying.  Skipping a huge chunk of time, not as the epilogue that allows readers to see a glimpse of the future, but just as a way of getting out of having to make your characters work out their issues is a cop out in my book.  Also, having the epitome of the stereotypical bigoted homophobes thrown in to create an added level of strife and drama was serious overkill and totally unnecessary.

It is hard to enjoy a book when you cannot in any way connect with the characters or the story.  This was just one of those for me.